I’ve been debating whether or not to write this, but I feel compelled. If only for the sake of giving voice to the anger and concern and disillusionment I have felt the past 24 hours.
Last night a friend and I were sexually harassed by some drunk men at a restaurant. I won’t go into what was said, because frankly, I don’t want to relive it. But I’m still fuming and somewhat in shock. I have never been talked to like that in this country or even in the U.S., and I hope never to again. It’s shameful.
But one thing is intensely clear: women’s bodies are still not their own. Something I’ve known for a long time—however, last night it became even more real to me. So here are some important realities that I want to drive home:
- My value AS A HUMAN BEING is not determined by my ability or inability to give you an erection. Fuck you if you believe that. I repeat: fuck you if you believe that.
- No ONE, man or woman, has a right OR obligation to TELL ANYONE how to feel or think about their bodies.
- If this is what women in the public eye feel like every goddamn day, then I’ve developed a new level of sadness for them.
I’m still stunned, but as I told my friend—I cried, I dealt, tomorrow it will be nothing more than a turd sandwich. I’m angry and sad because the world can be so unwelcoming and cruel. I’m angry and disillusioned that in many parts of the world, this is normal for most women. I brought these feelings into my lecture on gender this morning and told the young women and one young man in my class that NO ONE is allowed to tell you what to do or think of feel about YOUR BODY. I’ll call that a minor triumph in light of some serious bullshit.
Predators are some of the most pathetic and unhappy people on this earth, and perhaps that’s the saddest part of it all.
And that’s all I will speak about said turd sandwich.